Saturday, September 17, 2011

Blue and Alone...

Greetings emptiness!

Tonight I've been on a journey.

It started with my chest being ripped open and my soul totally revealed and teared apart in the most devine way. I saw Weeping Willows live at Babel in Malmoe. The melancholia, the sorrow, the broken hearts...

"We will never kiss again - I'm under a spell since you've gone
 We will never touch  again - I'm under a curse and I know...
 I feel so blue and alone..."

What started out as Heaven within the sorrow turned into Hell on my way home. When reading this I sence you might start thinking about muggings, abuse etc... but (probably due to mixing a couple of beers with the coctail of heartburst) it was my inner demons suddenly deciding to visit.

I saw the cars driving by on the street and it took me all my remaining strength to keep myself from stepping out in the street. It would have been so easy. One step - no encore.

But, I made it home and I'll probably wake up in the morning again. Hopefully the demons are not there... Tomorrow party time again:

"People say I'm the light of the party - because I tell a joke or two
 Although I may be laughing loud and hearty - deep inside I'm blue
 So take a good look at my face - you see my smile looks out of place
 If you look closer it's easy to trace - the tracks of my tears"

So, cruel world. I've fought the demons tonight- I managed to chase them away... this time...

Tomorrow, I fear they'll walk by my side again, trying to paint a beautiful and seductive picture of eternety.

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Friends don't crucify!

Today Easter is on. All the witches our off to their annual Quidditch-game.

Sorry I haven't been writing much the last couple of months.I have been evaluating. What you might ask. Well, mostly life in general. And I must say that right now things are, at least, ok. Not super but then again not totally f**k'd up.

One of the main reason why I can actually call life ok today is friends. I'm not talking about that lame swedish pop/dance band group, but people who support, listen and are offering a shoulder to cry on if needed.

In the modern Face Book world the expression Friends have lost some of its meaning but take a minute to think about it. Friend. What does it mean to you? What is a true friend?

I am married to my best friend, I have friends at work and outside of work, friends hundred of miles away. I have true friends on FB and I even have, believe it or not, friends that are not even on FB. Friends that I know won't stab me in the back and friends thet won't crucify me when I feel sorry about myself after having a couple of beers.

This post is for all of you (and you know who you are). Thank you for being there when I need you and I hope you feel I'll be there for you if the shit hits the fan.

Last weekend I saw a wonderful movie by Jean-Pierre Jeunet which really incorporated the expression friends. "Micmacs" from 2009. If you haven't seen it - Do. And while you're at it, dont miss some of his other great movies, fx. Delicatessen and City of the Lost Children.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Where's Johnny?

Where's Johnny? I caught myself thinking this today while watching the new Narnia movie. It sure felt a lot like Pirates of the Caribbean so naturally I was missing Jack Sparrow ie Johnny Depp.

"Here's Johnny!" Remember "The Shining" with Jack Nicholson. A really scary movie. But interesting to think that in the first example (Pirates) you have Johnny playing Jack, and the the second (Shining) you have Jack proclaiming "Here's Johnny".

One of my favourite songs of the 80's was "Johnny Come Home" by the Fine Young Cannibals. Oh, how I loved that song. Played it over and over.

Otherwise my favourite Johnny in music is of course the man in back, ie mr Johnny Cash himself. What a voice!

So, "Where's Johnny?". Well, Depp is the Tourist, Jack is not as scary anymore, the Cannibals are no more and Mr Cash is entertaining the Lord, but I guess there are millions of other great Johnnys out there and we all have our own Johnny-memories when hearing that name.

Tuesday, January 4, 2011

Ruby slippers on a lonely day

New Year's weekend has been great but waking up lonely this morning sucked. I looked around and "Toto, I guess we're not in Kansas anymore" or as Prince once sang "I woke up this morning could have sworn it was judgement day". All I wanted to do was to put on those ruby slippers, tap the heels together three times and chant "There's no place like home, there's no place like home". So, feeling sad and lonely most of the day was spent watching season 2 of "Californication". Still wonderful but maybe not as good as season 1.

Aiming for a better day tomorrow. Guess I'll start watching season 3 as well.

Still, I'm happy that I finally saw "The Wizard of Oz" this weekend. Definitely a classic. An awesome movie and it's hard to believe it was recorded in 1939.

Tonight I watched a weird swedish movie called "Karaoke kungen". One and a half hour of my life wasted. Great! Yeah, I know. If it was so lousy why didn't I stop watching sooner, but that's me. I like to finish books and movies that I started watching/reading.

Now it's passed midnight here in Sweden. Tuesdays are usually the worst day of the week, but maybe not this week. Guess I'll follow the yellow brick road and see where it takes me.